Thursday, April 9, 2009
The last 24 hours have been difficult here at our home. Last night I had the unfortunate task of telling Peanut and Bug it was time for our beloved dog, Sam to be put down. We have known he was sick, but no one is ever really ready, are they? We didn't realize how sick until an appt. yesterday with our vet. God's timing is, of course, perfect because he didn't have much time and if allowed to progress naturally, would not have been "pretty".
I know there are many things worse than this happening to many other people. I have spent the last day and a half working to remind myself that he was "just" a dog. But to us he was more. Sam is the first(and only)pet Papa and I have chosen together. I brought a dog into the marriage. We brought Sam into our home at the same time reality of our infertility came to a head. Papa works a late shift, so Sam is here with me when I hear a noise. If he didn't react, I knew I didn't have to.
As difficult as it was to hear my daughter, kneeling before her crucifix, crying out to Jesus to save her Sammy, I am encouraged by her ability to offer everything to Him. There was no hesitation in her turning to Him many times throughout last night and today. She has been able to cry to Him why, help me and and please take away these sorrows. I am so thankful God has brought me to my knees, allowing me to know Him, in turn allowing my children to know Him. Where would we be without Him? I do not want to know.
So today, we shared a snack with our faithful friend. Pretzels he learned to take from our lips, and M & M's he learned to love after he ate an entire bowl of special birthday colors for Bug 2 years ago. Then Peanut, Bug and I went shopping for our suitcase donations for the orphanage. (Papa took Sam to the vet) We came home with quite a few other items too. My kids don't really even ask for stuff, I just got things for them. ($5 light sabers, hair do dads) It really doesn't make things better. We still came home to an empty house......and an empty wallet.
Thank you for allowing me to share this totally off topic story.
Tomorrow we'll be back to our regularly scheduled adoption.