Eight days from right now, we will be heading to the orphanage to meet our son!
I have moments where I am feeling well-prepared, on track with my to-do-lists. Yes, there are things to do, but it feels like it continues to come together more and more each day. I realize there will always be a list of things to do and some things on my list are not necessary. Though I must figure out what clothes I have to pack and what I might still need to buy! I seem to keep putting that one off and I am sure it should be considered a high priority!! ;))
Then I have moments where I wonder what I am thinking! I feel like I am missing something BIG, I am way too calm to be leaving the country for 15 days, leaving my 2 kids and bringing home a child who doesn't speak my language. I should be running around frantic about something, I feel.
Yet, I am not. And those above moments are fleeting.
Throughout the last few years, there have been times when God has given me complete peace when I could be really stressed. Or worried. God has allowed me to rest in Him, knowing that what is important, needed for my family will be done. He will provide, He will allow me to breathe, be the wife/mother I need to be if I trust in Him. Often in surrendering my "wants" or what I believe to be the path/plan to His will allows me freedom to enjoy it all so much more. I rest in Him, knowing full well the plans He has for me are so much more than I could ever imagine.
The Psalms 91
| He that dwelleth in the secret place of the Most High|
|2|| I will say of the LORD,|
|3|| Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler,|
|4|| He shall cover thee with his feathers,|
|5|| Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night;|
|6|| nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness;|
|7|| A thousand shall fall at thy side,|
|8|| Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold|
|9|| Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge,|
|10|| there shall no evil befall thee,|
|11|| For he shall give his angels charge over thee, Mt. 4.6 · Lk. 4.10 |
|12|| They shall bear thee up in their hands,|
|13|| Thou shalt tread upon the lion and adder:|
|14|| Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him:|
|15|| He shall call upon me, and I will answer him:|
|16|| With long life will I satisfy him,|
I thank God for the peace that surrounds me and the knowledge that He is my rock. I give Him praise that we will have another little soul to raise to know, to love and to serve Him.
Now for that, I am ready!